Remembering Our Beloved Amanda

Amanda Loved life and she gave life!
A brandnew start, a special gift.
Now other people can get on with their life,
because Amanda cared enough to save their life!

Amanda's Day!

Where I went today you went also. I wore your picture proudly. Your arms extended outward represents your angel wings as you hold them out to hug your family on this day to comfort them in thir time of grief. I didn't have a smaller picture so I had to pin this picture to the middle of my shirt.



I took another picture of you and posted it about the internet today making you some new angel friends that I'm sure you've already met! I chose the ones that passed away near your death.




My day today has been focused on you and making it all about you. Today is the second hardest day of my life!

It's Been A Year Today

It's so hard to believe that it's been a year now. I guess you know the outcome of your parents being taken to court. Who would have thought that the judge would have taken everything away from your parents, and to think they wasn't even trying to take the girls away from their dad. Now everyone loses even the girls. How much more do the girls have to weather, just because of their dad. I can't imagine being in their tiny little shoes right now. I just hope their dad tells them the truth about the outcome of Mondays court session. That has always been the thing that bothers me the most is knowing that it'll be years down the road before they'll know the honest truth about everything. Your parents lost you a year ago, and now they have lost your daughters as well. Someday the girls and your parents will reconnect and there won't be a thing that their dad can do about it. I just wish that life as we knew it never had to change. Life is changing so quickly around us and it's as though it's spinning out of control. Life isn't anything like it used to be. You're loved by so many! Thinking of you girl! We'll see you some day and until that day just know nothing is the same as it used to be. My heart is breaking and still feels a tremendous loss.

God Bless You Amanda

God bless you Amanda and may you rest in peace. I love you as though you are a child of mine. I would give anything to have you back here with us! Your love is missed I assure you of that. As I told your sister Angela, I don't understand why you had to be the one to go. Why was your time with us so short? Someday we'll all know why, until that day keep an ear turned our way. Ask God to show and give us strength. I hope someday there will be peace in all our lives. I know lots of people are hurting, hearts have been stabbed repeatedly, God loving caring people lives are still being turned upside down. I don't know how much we can take, but know God said he wouldn't put more on us than we can handle but I myself don't know how much more I can take. Some people are boasting on the pain that we feel, why does God allow that to happen? I have to remind myself that God has a plan and He knows what's best for everyone involved.

Middleton Familly